Friday, March 19, 2010 / 8:11 AM
what's this feeling going through me now? jealousy? anger? unfairness?
i just went to stalk people on facebook, especially pri sch friend's account. i came across this particular guy's account. i know that he likes me when i was in primary four, but didnt dare say it to me. he kept looking at me and whatever. i hated him to the core then. but why, why did have have this tugging feeling when i found out that he has a girlfriend? i should have no feelings about that. i should laugh at his girlfriend and him. but what i felt (and i am going to comfirm), was pure jealousy. DEEP, BOUNDLESS AND PURE JEALOUSY.
why? why? why? why? why jealousy?
maybe, maybe it hurts to know that you have been liked before, but never told before and right after that, the perso totally forgets about you. dunked you away as if you are a piece of insignificant shit. it hurts now, even though i used to hate him to much, so fuck-much-ing.
the girl is not something which you would look at when she walks down the street. simply put it, she is plain, from top to bottom. she tries her best to put on make up bla bla, but it doesnt work. im not sure if she is a malay or not, but she sure looks like one. she and the guy have kissed before, and i saw a picture of it. i cant help but choke on my water. oh the horror.
but another thing, the guy is not that great either.
AH! who cares. people come and go. people you once remember, you will forget. people you once come into contact with, will disappear from your memory. this is life ong jia ying. stop sitcking on to your past. there has got to be more to life that sticking around, doing nothing and poking our nose into other people's busisness.
you are too young to have to boyfriend! stop fantasizing! you have to wait. patience is virtue. remember what you goal in life is - be the greatest architechure/ fashion designer/ accountant or whatever that allows me to be able to be independent. you certainly do not want a bf to suddenly "POP" into your life, ruin your whole life, making you fall into the abyss of hopeless romantic darkness and strip you off of your independece. NO JIA YING, YOU DO NOT WANT THAT. YOU ARE CAPABLE OF SURIVING ON YOURSELF. YOU ARE CAPABLE OF SURVIVING OUT HERE ON YOUR OWN. YOU ARE CAPABLE TO... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
*curses to all those who have made me jealous*
Like An Angel
JIAYING
- dislikes marriage
- loves fashion design
- aims to be the best designer in the world
- taking (ss+geog), chem, bio, physics, english, A math, E math, chinese and art for sec 3 and 4
- loves chinese
- ex bbps student
- bad kid
- loves 2s2 forever
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